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Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Someone that ...

Ah, this week or I could say this month, there're a lot of thing happened. Totally make me exhausted. Really, give me a break for a while...

A few days ago, while my mind in cloud, I remembered someone from my past... Can you guess who?

Boyfriend? Nah, I'm not in ties with anyone...
or Ex? Puff~ Not in a dream...

But, that person is a man. Well, you may say that I'd a feeling towards him actually and I knew he didn't know.

How many years had been passed, I wonder... First time I met him was when I was in my form 5 which means I was 17 years old at that time and he was a year younger than me.

You see here, I really like to see a guy with glasses. My type, maybe? ^^,

What I could say about him... Hurm, lets see, yeah, he's a good guy. Well, he was a maahad student. And he took Arabic. That time, I was what you called academic bureau for the hostel. 

All the bureaus whether boys or girls had to conduct orientation for newcomers. And there's a night you could called 'malam burung hantu'. Ah, I didn't know if that's the term. Well, that night, we will closed all the lamp and leave all the students in darkness. We asked them a few things to know them better... To see their feeling after they'd to leave their parents. Well, there're students who will cry if they're alone or called their parents everyday. To be short, that's the deal!

Unluckily, during the orientation, I didn't manage to talk to him and we're not in the same group. T_T

What make me shocked was my own play at that time. You see, after the orientation week's over, we're doing our daily life just like usual. but, for once in my whole life, I asked a junior who was a classmate of him to help me asked his phone number. I really wonder how I could be bold at that time???!!! Never in my whole life asking a boy that I took interest his phone number.

And to be more shocked, he replied!

I read the piece of paper that had his number, and I almost snap! There're two line of numbers. One in the usual number symbol and the other one was in arabic number. 

When I looked at the usual number symbol, the number written was really not a phone number. If it's a phone number, it should be like
0123456789
but what was written was;
9876543210
and it's the same as in arabic. 
I was pretty depressed as I thought he played with me but after I calmed down, I finally managed to solve the trick. Simple...
And thus, when we went home, I tried to send him a message and he replied. I was really happy...

Unfortunately, it was really a short story for us. ^^o

He got an invitation to KISAS and on his last day, I didn't manage to see him face to face because of the tuition. In the end, we lost contact as the time flies...

I really missed him eventhough I already forgot his name...[Well, I'm a person that have a hard time to remember someone's name or face...You can say that I have a bad memory]

I wish we can meet again...

Thursday, November 7, 2013

What a journey 0_o' pt 3

... I came back at 1 am. Luckily we could still entered the college. Save~

Monday, why it didn't be a holiday? Tomorrow's holiday. Really, these lecturers totally love classes. Well. not that I minded but it would be better if it's a holiday. Never mind about that ...

I only had classes until 1 pm anyway... In the first placed, I intended to go the post office with my friend but she'd many works to do so I'd to go alone ... I didn't mind... Well, there's a post office in here anyway. I didn't really need to go far that was what I thought.

I took the number and waited. Ah, there's about 20 more~
After waited a few minutes, finally it's my turn. I went to the counter and said ...
"I wanna make new bank book. Can I?"
"Are you wanna make a new account or ..." She asked.
"No... Well, actually my previous book was lost and I wanna make the new one."
"Oh, if that so, you have to go to PNB directly. Any lost book have to go there to make new one." She explained it calmly but I was totally in shocked. PNB? What? Where?
"Urm, can I know where's PNB?"
"Hurm, you took the train and stop at Ampang Park. The building's around that area."
Ampang park???

Then, I started my journey again ... 
When I arrived at Ampang Park, I was totally lost. Wuwu...
I didn't know the direction to the PNB. It's my first time came here. Waaa, help me!!!

I saw a shop and asked for direction. Luckily the owner was kind enough to tell me in detail about the location and it was right and easy to understand. Thank you, mister!

I entered the PNB building and went to the counter. A guard talked to me and asked my business. He was kind and polite old man. He told me to wait at a counter there. 

The staff in charge was an older woman. She asked my business and gave me a form to completed and prepared RM 20.00. Charge for lost the book.

In the end, I successfully to make new book and also withdrew some money. Before I went back, I walked to the mall nearby to buy food to eat as well as to find a bank. I wanted to deposit my money first b'cause carrying a large amount of money make my heart uneasy.

Enough with that day...
The next day, I went out alone again b'cause no one can accompany me. Pretty lonely, neh?
Whatever, I went to Low Yat as I planned and at the first shop I stopped, I made my decision to buy the laptop there. I was totally tired to window shopping. 
The promoter that in charge of me told me to gave RM 300 as a deposit before paid the rest. Well, I went to the atm to withdraw the money that I saved yesterday.

I didn't know that I could only withdraw RM 1000 a day. I was totally shocked!
I was pretty uneasy as the money I need was not enough but luckily I still have some money in my other bank. Really...

In the end, I managed to buy the laptop ...
At last, my suffering day without a laptop finally ended!!!

Yeay!!!
4 days journeys in order to buy a laptop finally could be concluded... 

Dear my new laptop, please stay healthy at least until I finish my study and get a job...
I don't want to use my saving again to buy new laptop...
I still have many other things to buy other than you...
Please be understand~
Please~

What a journey 0_o' pt 2

Enough with that day...
You see, the next day, Sunday was supposedly my free time or my relaxing time. I like to be lazy in my room or tidy up my room but since my friend, Fini make a plan with me, I really had to obey ...

Well, actually it was't really bad. She got 2 free tickets to watch the final match of Malaysia Cup aka Piala Malaysia ... You see, our tuition was a little bit special. We managed to get the tickets through that. I really didn't mind at all b'cause I'm not really interested to watch any soccer or other sports tournament... But this time, it's final so I rather be a little bit interested. The problem was how to go there?

I just leave that to her since she the one who invited me in the first place. Luckily, she said her friend will send us. And her friend turned out to be a guy plus an outsider. UniKl student... Actually I was pretty uncomfortable but I just bear it. For today only!

We went at 3 o'clock and arrived at 5 o'clock. Deja vu right? There're really jam around the stadium. Many supporters came and parked their car everywhere...

After we arrived at the stadium, we searched for k. Wani, who held the tickets. I really shocked to see my kyohai there. I forgot that she also went to the same tuition as me. We entered the stadium around 6 o'clock and hell, what the ... There're too many people in. And the place was really packed with all the supporters. Even though we came early, there're no place to sit anymore. How frustrating!!!

TICK, TOCK, TICK, TOCK!
An hour left until the game started and suddenly ... It's raining!!! Slowly to get heavier ... I could see the supporters who sat at the place without a roof began to move. Ah~ It's really good if I can sat there...

As I looked around, I saw a person with an umbrella and it shocked me. You see, last time when I watched the game for Piala Merdeka at Stadium Darul Makmur, I thought they're not allowed to bring umbrella.

I smiled happily and started to separate with Fini and her friend. I moved to the front... As I went, the rain poured heavily and windy... The direction of the rain started to move toward the place I was at. SUCK!

Immediately I opened my umbrella and waited for people who wanted to come up to move. One thing that I couldn't forget was when a young man suddenly stood beside me. Not bad for his face. Well, he just sheltered under my umbrella. LUCKY <3 font="">

A moment after that, I leave him and started to move. At last, in the front! Really I could see the goal pole clearly. A few minutes left before the game started. I kept saying in my heart that if Pahang win this game, my day will be better~

The game began ...
Really, I was totally immersed in the game. There're many chances for each team to score goal but kept failing. Unlucky, right but pretty suspend ...

In the end, Pahang won with 1-0. I was happy to be truth and hoping that my day will be as I wished ...

[To be continue ...]

What a journey 0_o' pt 1



You see, last week was totally a chaos!!!
Wanna know what happen???
Let see ...
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If I remembered correctly, it started on saturday... Yes, everything bad happened on that day. My 'CURSE' day!

You knew that my laptop was totally cannot be used, right? You see, I planned to buy new laptop on that day. I even had to ask my father to send me my bank book.

Firstly, let me share with you the plan:
I'll go to Pekeliling to take my bank book and something that I'd my brother to buy for me while my friend went to KLCC first to check the post office or bank whether it opened or not. And she'll buy the tickets to watch the THOR 2 so that we can save time.
After I got my thing, I'll go to KLCC. If the post office or bank was opened and I could withdraw the money, we'll buy the laptop after the movie and if not, I'll withdraw the money on Monday and we'll buy the laptop the next day. Pretty smooth, right?

Well, that's the plan and what happened was ...
As we planned, I went to Pekeliling while my friend went to KLCC. At first, it went smoothly according to the plan but everything became a CHAOS as soon as I got my thing and on my way to KLCC. 
To go to KLCC from Pekeliling, I'd to change train from Ampang line to Kelana Jaya line. When I was in the train to Ampang line, I met a friend's friend. We talked and talked until the time for us to change the train. While I walked leisurely with her until we arrived at the station of other train, I realized that something missing from me. I kept wondering a few seconds before I realized my thing!
What I do? 
Of course I ran as quickly as I could to the counter. I talked to the staff about what happened and you know what, she kept asking me an annoying question. 
"Which train do you take?"
"Which area do you sit? Front, middle or at back?"
"What did you lost?"
"When?"
and bla bla...
Can't you see that I lost my thing? Why did you have to ask where did I sit? and while I kept answering that I took the train toward Ampang line, why do you kept repeating the question???
What made me totally fed up when she said, "Tak boleh main kot- kot ni dik. Kita nak konfemkan." as I said, "Dekat tengah kot. takpun depan."
If I confidently remember which area I sat, there's no way I'll forget my thing!!!!
and then, after she reported to I don't know who, she said, "Tunggu sini sampai orang sana telefon semula." 
How long do you think I'd to wait?
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ALMOST AN HOUR!!!
and then she said, "Tak ada lah dik. Mungkin ada orang dah tolong ambilkan."
What the heck, trying to make a joke or what????
After I'd to wait this long, that's all you'd to say to me? Let alone any kind word that my soften my frustrated heart, you gave me a really annoying word that really add the fuel in my burning heart!!!
DAMN!

Ah, well... that day, I just spent my money to watch the movie... Really what a day ...

[To be continue ...]

Thursday, October 31, 2013

GOodbye my ...


Have anyone ever said that you need to have chemistry with something so that it'll be with you forever or longer?
If that so, I think maybe I really don't have any chemistry with what you call LAPTOP...
Wanna know y?
The answer is simple: This is my 2nd time having my laptop to be replaced with the new one...
To put in simpler word, I have to buy new laptop which will be the 3rd one!!!
What make me really pissed and frustrated was that lappy I only used it for a year!!! Can you imagine???

Thus, I have to be patience to live without a lappy+ watching anime+ reading manga+ downloading+ everthing....
I really need a laptop!!!

Monday, October 21, 2013

Little by little ...

I always wonder how can someone do a job step by step. I mean, can't you try finishing it in a day?
Little by little. 'Biar lambat asal selamat'...
Is it really better that way?
Let we think for a while ...
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Okay, it's true that doing it step by step is rather better than don''t do at all. But, but, but ....
Doing it in a flash seem better choice.
No matter how many jobs do you have, it's better doing it faster so that you have more time for yourself to relax ...
Well, I mean really ... It's not even easy to get a day off and yet when you got deadline that was a long enough for you to slack off, won't it better to finish it first  and enjoy later?
Sometimes, we're the one who should find a way to get more free time than waiting that time itself come.

Little by little ...
Really sometimes can lead a good solution and still can lead the worst solution if you're a person who can't keep your own word.
"There're many more days left before the deadline, tomorrow I'll start doing it ..."
and then, tomorrow ...
"I'll do tomorrow ..."
Until the end of the deadline. SCARY isn't it?
and also the worst for someone who can't even estimate themselves.
"Today, I'll do until this. Tomorrow, until this part and ..."
and in the end of the deadline ...
"Oh, GOSH! I haven't finish this part yet. Ceh, seems like I arranged wrongly ..."
'Sesal dahulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian tiada gunanya' RIGHT?

Well, depend on yourself what to do and just prepare for the worst. The choice in your hand. You choose, you do and you reap what you sow... FAIR enough right?

Very well, I don't know what to write about anyways ... Just filling my time. 
DESTINY is not what lead us but CHOICE we make~

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Not a word can describe it ...

Hisashiburi minna-san ...
Long time no see I guess ...
I eventually finished my mid-sem break a week ago. Nothing much to share b'cause I didn't really go anywhere ... As far as I remember, I only awoke at night and slept in the morning until afternoon. ^^
I guess you can said it became a habit. -_-'

But, but, but ...
Wanna know something?
This time it wasn't about what happened during my break, it was during on my way to the college ... o_0

This is what I want to share ... About thing that PISSED me off totally!!!

You see, my bad day started when I rode the bus. The ticket that my dad bought said clearly that my seat was 6C. Then, when I already sat there, a few minutes later, come a couple of men. I guess they're in their 50's or more. Their style, if I had to describe would be like person who rode a bike, the large like AWIE had.
One of the men said that his seat also 6C, and I, of course started to panic! I thought I'd already checked the ticket countless times. What made me angry + pissed was that OLD MAN said to me to go and seat somewhere else.
HELLO!!! I'm the one sat here first, okay??? Such an arrogant old man. I hate a person like that. 
B'cause I didn't get to sleep, I just kept quiet and stood up before when to the driver. He said to sit anywhere free b'cause there're not many passengers. Well, I didn't mind but ....
You know what, that OLD MAN didn't even said THANK YOU!!! Arghh!!!
Okay, enough with that story ... This time it happened after I arrived to my room. It seemed that one of my roommates already there. You know, before I could enter my own room, I could hear a loud voice from inside ...
Sometimes I couldn't understand them. Can't they just talk in normal volume? I mean, in a level enough for their circles to hear only. Every time their friends or they talked, they liked to use 'loudspeaker'. Sometimes, it got me head ache. I hate noise especially people voice. It sooooooo annoying!!!
What I couldn't stand, a while ago, I just wanted to pray Asar prayer and then I could hear she talked to the phone really loud. I really think that they don't understand the term of privacy at all or respect others. T_T

Hurm ... nways, see you again ^^

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

.: PERSONALITY TEST :.





Look at the tree and choose the one that is immediately most appealing to you. 
Don’t think about it too long, just choose, and find out 
what your choice says about your personality. write down your choice in the comments.
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The results!

1. You are a generous and moral (not to confuse with moralizing) person. You always work on self-improvement. You are very ambitious and have very high standards. People might think that communicating with you is difficult, but for you, it isn't easy to be who you are. You work very hard but you are not in the least selfish. You work because you want to improve the world. You have a great capacity to love people until they hurt you. But even after they do. . . you keep loving. Very few people can appreciate everything you do as well as you deserve.

2. You are a fun, honest person. You are very responsible and like taking care of others. You believe in putting in an honest day's work and accept many work-related responsibilities. You have a very good personality and people come to trust you easily. You are bright, witty and fast-thinking. You always have an interesting story to tell.

3.You are a smart and thoughtful person. You are a great thinker. Your thoughts and ideas are the most important. You like to think about your theories and views alone. You are an introvert. You get along with those who likes to think and learn. You spend a lot of time, thinking about morality. You are trying to do what is right, even if the majority of society does not agree with you.

4. You are perceptive and philosophical person. You are a unique, one soul of your kind. Next to you there's no one even slightly similar to you. You are intuitive and a bit quirky. You are often misunderstood, and it hurts you. You need personal space. Your creativity needs to be developed, it requires respect of others. You are a person who clearly sees the light and dark sides of life. You are very emotional.

5. You are self-assured and in charge. You are very independent. Your guiding principle in life is 'I'll do it my way.'. You are very self-reliant and know how to stay strong for yourself and the people you love. You know exactly what you want and are not afraid of pursuing your dreams. The only thing you demand from people is honesty. You are strong enough to accept the truth.

6. You are kind and sensitive. People relate to you very well. You have many friends and you love helping them. You have this warm and bright aura that makes people feel good when they are around you. Every day, you think about what you can do to improve yourself. You want to be interesting, insightful and unique. More than anybody else in the world, you need to love. You are even ready to love those who don't love you back.

7. You are happy and unflappable. You are a very sensitive and understanding person. You are a great listener who know how to be non-judgmental. You believe that everybody has their own journey in life. You are open to new people and events. You are highly resistant to stress and rarely worry. Normally, you are very relaxed. You always manage to have a good time and never lose your way.

8. You are charming and energetic. You are a fun person who knows hot to make people laugh. You live in a state of harmony with the universe. You are spontaneous and enthusiastic. You never say no to an adventure. Often, you end up surprising and even shocking people. But that's just how you are. . . You always remain true to yourself. You have many interests and if something proves of interest to you, you will not rest until you acquire a profound knowledge of this area.

9. You are optimistic and lucky. You believe that life is a gift and you try to achieve as much as possible and put this gift to the best use possible. You are very proud of your achievements. You are ready to stick by the people you care about through thick and thin. You have a very healthy approach to life. The glass is (at least) half full for you. You use any opportunity to forgive, learn, and grow because you believe that life is too short to do otherwise

Sunday, October 6, 2013

At last!!!!

Hi!!!
Domo domo minna-san!!!
This time I'm just wanna share my new collection...
JAJAJANGGGG!!!!!
FIRST DAY

SECOND DAY



So, fantastic, right? ^_^
It's really tiring and heart breaking doing it but me and my friend, just couldn't ignore it once we started. And luckily with the power of two peoples, we just took 2 days! >.<
When it's completed, we're really joyful and nearly to cry. T_T
My friend took a number of pictures before she went back to her own room...
This puzzle contains 1000 pieces. o_O
Last time I bought just 300 pieces. Firstly when I opened the box, I wonder how's it size...
I tried to do it on the floor which a little bit small thus when we did, we placed it on the bed so I'd to sleep on the floor. 
Geez... I'm really happy and I wasn't believed that the puzzle could be solved. I always intend to do it when I was free without any work.
Thank you, FAIRUZ for helping me...
Ai shiteru <3 font="">

Saturday, October 5, 2013

JUST BE YOURSELF...

Really, I don't know what to write anymore...

Should I write about myself? Nah, too boring. There's nothing interesting to know about and even I don't know about myself.
Have you guys wonder, whether you're being yourself this whole time or you're just adjust according to the situation?
There's some people said,
"BE TRUTH TO YOURSELF!"
"ALWAYS BE YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN!" 

I wonder do we actually always be ourselves this whole time? Have you guys?
To tell you the truth, I've done a lot of thinking about this subject. Even I couldn't find the answer.

You see, took me for an example...
Whenever I'm with my family, my mother especially, I tend to be like a little spoil. Sometimes my little sis got annoyed and jealous.
but when I'm with my friends, I just like a little mature. Well, some already called me cold hearten because of that or emotionless. There's one time, not a friend but people around me thinking that I'm an arrogant person. It seemed that I'm a little less to give a smile to people. 

Well, as we can concluded, being truth can be mean that you're just being honest to yourself. Not betrayed what you believed for and act accordingly.

That may said that your personalities just changed but not you! One may have a lot of personalities and not just one. To show your personalities differently according to the subject, sometimes is a must. 
The truth is we're all a lonely human. We tend to seek for love in many ways. We like to have someone to set their eyes on us so that we can be loved. That's what make us to be different in many ways.

"YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE  no matter where you go... Just stay truth to yourself and never betray your heart!   

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Life always comes with a bliss...

Hi... o_O
How all of you do today? ^.^
Really, what a day...

I don't know how actually I feel exactly actually... Hihi... I guess I rather chose happy than sad or frust. I only had 2 classes today and it's pretty interesting. Plus there's someone I know. Well, you see, actually today I went out pretty long and only managed to rest a bit in my room. WHY???

Well, after I finished my class, my friend and I went to a lot of places around center. So, why am I feel happy? Not TIRED?

You see, after we finished our business, we went to the auditorium to have health check up. Both of us checked our blood pressure, body fat, glucose, BMI and others. The result was pretty good. Normal and healthy... *_*

Ahh, there's also dental check up. It's a little while since I'd my teeth checked up. Urm, about 2 years maybe?

You see, when I saw the dentist, she is a woman. Pretty kind and I like her. What I really love when she praised my teeth... hehe... She said my teeth were really pretty, organized and clean. She praised me for taking a good care of them. Actually I was really shocked and didn't believe at all. You know, I never really care about my teeth but maybe my habit of always rinse my mouth after eat or drink any thing with water. I wonder...

   

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

What a day ...

Sigh ... -_-
Today I was pretty late to my first class; well of course b'cause it started at 8.30 am, hence it made me a great journey... The class is at the forth level so I'd to use stairs so that I still managed to be on time but you know what, once I got there, the class wasn't even open yet!
The second class, I went out 5 minutes before the class started thus, I came on time eventhough the class already started. It's math class. Luckily this time, it's not so boring.
but, what make my heart boils is the third class. You see, I didn't pray the Zohor prayer yet b'cause I was too concentrated in anime. So I decided to pray after the class. Same with the second class, I went out 5 minutes earlier but the different was, when I arrived, there're only a few people. I sat patiently around 20 minutes and there... THE LECTURER WASN'T COMING AT ALL!!! I really wasted my time and so my energy... Arghhh!!!
I don't know what to say anymore. So tired ... =_='

Monday, September 16, 2013

Welcome back my life as ...

WELCOME X2 ...^.^
Welcome back to your student's life ...
Really, time surely passed pretty fast ...
Now, it's almost a week I'd been in my university hence leave my home ...
By the way, I continued working ... Huhu... Pretty good development right?
I just worked at the kiosk in my own mahallah. It's good enough as I can save my money in the transport part and the works are pretty simple; just being a cashier and tidy up the store.

CLASS???
Ehemm... ^0^
I really didn't wanna think about that actually. There're classes that really interesting yet there're classes that too BOOOORRIIIINGGGGG!!!!
I'm really frustrated as I went and attended the class. Could you stand it if the math was the one that's boring? Anyway, I'll try to keep it up for the time being ...

BAD NEWS!!!
Can you believe it if I said that the system changed drastically? If it'd been made easier than no one will complain; but it's the opposite! What my friend told me, if one didn't attend classes more than 20%, automatically barred! The worst one was; even though your carry marks higher, but you get fail in final, the result will be FAIL! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? Don't they know that the final is really hard? I'm gonna get myself killed!

SWEET MEMORY <3 font="">
After a week, I registered, I went back to Kuantan. Well, it's HARI MALAYSIA on monday; meaning more holiday, why shouldn't I go home, right? Pretty smart, see! You see, I got really bad luck on that day.
1. The bus from my mahallah to the LRT, came really late. Duh, It's so frustrating. Luckily I only brought a bag only.
2. The ticket to Kuantan already sold out for that day.
3. The prayer room at Pekeliling was crowded! I wouldn't be angry if all the people in there were praying yet there some who sat doing nothing and online. The most annoying part was, they're too ignorance; not consider others at all. If the room is huge, no one will care but the room is too small and totally limited for a number of persons.
4. Eventhough I managed to get a seat in the bus, but I'd to pay RM 25. Way too expensive.
Okay, enough with the misfortune that I 'd to face. It totally unmatched with my subtitle above ...
Anyway, the day after that, I went out with my sis and bro. Pretty sweet? I expended my family. You see, that day was the final for Piala Pesta Merdeka and Malaysia got into final versus Myanmar. I invited my bro and Ain to watched it... Excited sih...
That was my first experience watching a soccer match after a long  time. Really, it's sweet memory ever as Malaysia won 2-0.

FATE?
You see, ticket for Kuala Lumpur already sold out so, my father as his friend's help. Accidentally, I saw Shafini, one of my nearest friend. She also didn't managed to get any ticket but luckily there's one seat left. I really didn't expect to see her as we didn't manage to meet on the day to go to Kuantan the other day.

... As you keep walking, you will face many things; good or bad... You never know what the meaning behind it until you already faced it up. Hence, keep walking, move forward and never look back...

Thursday, September 5, 2013

As the time pass by ...

It really been awhile. I never get to wish happy Ramadhan and also Eid Fitr. Really, as the title written, it surely feel that time flies too fast... September comes pretty fast, huh! That what happened when we wish the to be faster. No way? Try to remember back in July during fast month. We really wish so that the Eid Fitr will come faster. Oh please, there's no way not a single person wished that. Me to be included. When the August came, so be the festival; the one we really waiting for. But we can never maintain in one spot. So do the time. It needs to continue moving. Now, we are in SEPTEMBER. And really in a few days I too will be leaving my freely life as I'll be back to my student life. Aaahhh~

Well, to be able to say good bye to my cashier life, it's not sooo BAD after all. I can finally stop seeing the face that I hate and talk the thing I really intend not to are really heaven~

Just a week before I go back to Gombak. Really, my heart feels totally uneasy and undetermined. I want to go back but in the same time I don't wanna... Haih~

Really, what's wrong with me?

Sunday, July 14, 2013

There is always their partners in each words~







Have we ever think?
Everytimes we believe there'll be a lie waiting ahead. No matter how strong we believe, the truth will come out slowly and our determination as well as out inspiration went down drastically...
You know, in life, everything is a lie... Even with ourselves, we're lying. To the ONE who create us and to others also. The matter that more important is how far we realize it. We be friend with someone and eventually can be called close friend. But there's sometimes we lie to him/her. There's not even exist the word 'BELIEVE'. That word only created by our unconscious mind in order to defy and deny the word lie that had been always in our hearts.
WHITE LIE?
Is there really such a thing? White can be said as pure and innocent. White lie can be said as good lie. You lie to someone so that he/she can be happy, or you want to cover some stories. Have you wonder what might happen if those lie appear again and being exposed? Will it be good ending or otherwise? And if good lie is white lie, then is bad lie is black lie?
Lie is still a lie. Maybe in present time, those we called white lie might bring happiness, but don't you think truth is much better. We can face what happen together and move forward together because we may not even alive when he/she discover about the lie. And future is not something that have been created yet but just the path.

Aside from that, lie can be sometimes ENJOYING, RELAXING, DEPRESSING and ANNOYING...
As it said, lie may be annoying sometimes and may becomes worse that depressing type. Annoying lie= obvious lie
You tried to tell someone that you're fasting but the fact is, the smoke from cigarette that happen to stay in your shirt blow it off. And yet you still confront the lie? Euck!
If it happened a few times is okay but what if it happened almost everyday??? JUST DAMN!
Just watching make the 'pahala' flew away as the thought kept 'mengumpat' countless times.
What makes the situation worse, you not even do any work! Just laying around and 'mengular'. Unfair!

Ah~
I don't even know what I'm talking about!!!
The stress keeps increasing....   

Friday, July 12, 2013

Sometimes life is all about the past ...




After I started worked at my previous place, it seems I'm kinda missed how nice it would be if that place and the workers be like before... Ah well, even people may change, there's nothing to be shocked if the place too...
TRUE... I really do miss the PAST. It's a lot more fun even though the job seem to be easier now. I wished I never realized about that actually (the changes)... 
In PAST, they're a lot more nicer and hardworking. and the new workers also seem diligent. But now, I saw they changed a lot, well, not everyone, but yeah, it would be nice if they changed to better not worse. The new workers also seem to be a little bit lazy and there's some who you may label as 'kurang ajar'. Like malay phase, 'diam- diam ubi berisi'. You never know someone whose seem to be the silent type be like that. And a little bit like 'gangster' behavior. Even I was shocked. I pitied my employee, she must be stressed.
It seems that I still stuck in my PAST. Well, only idiot would want to leave something nice, is what I'm thinking. And willing to move forward.. But actually it's incorrect... Only idiot would want to stay with something good and not willing to move forward... And I'm the one.
I really want to get along with everyone like before but it seems to be just a dream. We can't change people but we can just play along and try to accept it.
Really, just when I worked with my friend who was my ex-roommate in PJ, we remembered our memories when we're staying at the same room with other two people. We laughed as we remembered about what happened back then whether it's sweet or bitter memories. We even thought how could we be like that? How unmatured...

In conclusion, I just thinking... Sometimes, there're a time when life while thinking about PAST is important. You see, even bitter may be sweet and you can laugh when you think how stupid you're in the PAST. But I'm not saying living or being wrapped with the PAST is good. I think PAST is good if ;
  • you use PAST as your relaxing tool
  • you use as a reminder for your mistake 
  • you want to treasure it 
One had say that deny PAST is just like you denying your own existence. Plus without PAST, there'll be no PRESENT and FUTURE

Everything we done is PAST; Everything we're doing is PRESENT; and Everything we intend or plan to do is FUTURE.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

+Return to the past+

Moshi moshi ...
Today, I started work at Petronas Hj Ahmad again... huhu... Well, there're a few reasons why i decided to stop working at Big Apple Donuts & Coffee.... If I'd to choose, it's really better for me to work at petronas. You see, tomorrow, it will be the 1st ramadhan and we'd to face a month fasting without eating and drinks in daytime. It's not really a hard job to do but I'm scared if I'm carelessly eat  or lick any cream that I got during top up the donuts. If it happened once or twice, it'll be alright but how will it be if it's a countless of times? It'll really make my fast be wasted. Ah, another reason, I will never be able to break the fast at home as I'll always went home at 11pm. Sucks, right?
Btw, today is my 1st day at Petronas... I'm glad I still remember a few of things. But it seem there're somethings changed. In bad and good. Then, today also I'd to climb the fuel's lorry to confirm that we received all the fuels. It's my first experience in my life. So fun and not scary at all...
Today shift was with my friend, Ain. Lucky!
She told many things, from important things to the gossips... Huhu... Ladies~
That's all I want to share...  

Life is all about adventures~

Well, for now, its been a month I'd sem break. Whoa, it's really been awhile... In my early break, I just rest at home without doing anything... It's really boring through... After a week, I started to look for work... 3 months break without anything to do really suck!
In previous break, I just worked at Petronas Hj Ahmad, well, that's b'cause usually I only got 3 weeks break. This time, I wished to work at somewhere else...
With my friend, Ain, we went to the EC Mall. This time, that's our choice. There're really many vacancy either part time or full time. As we survey, i decided to work at Big Apple Donuts & Coffee... The thing I couldn't forget was when I called the person in charged. His name is Nurul Huda. I really never thought that he is a man. I was really in shocked and ashamed. Luckily, in one try, I got the job... I'm always lucky in that part...huhu... 
About the job, I worked as the front liner, the one who served the customer, be the cashier and make the drinks. It's not really a tired job but when there's no customers, it be realllyyyyy boooorrriiiinnnggggg......
You see, when we're the one who served customers, our point of view automatically changed. We could see how annoyed some customers are. 
For examples:
1. There's a couple. you stood in front of them and asked, "Yes, how many pieces?" And then they ignored and walked all the way to the front with their hand pointing at the donuts. you asked again. "Yes, how many pieces do you want?" This time louder. And they still ignored until they stood at the counter. Hello, I asked many times and you just walk away like a couple of deaf people. Or are you really deaf? How can you expect I knew how many pieces do you one??? Like bull sh*t!
2. Here comes another one. There's a couple or maybe a group of customers came. Like usual, you stood in front of them and asked, "How many pieces?" This time waited patiently and watched them. You can see they whispers at themselves like having discussion....
"How many pieces do you want?"
"Hurm, six or twelve?"
"Six."
"Is it enough?"
"....blablabla..."
"Okay, twelve."
And then, they started to move and pointing the donuts while you're still waiting. What the... Let me ask, who're the one who asked and will serve you? Is it your friend? Then just asked them to come inside and worked here!
3. Another one was really rude customers... when others already line up, there's still some who selfishly cut the que... Really, are they not thinking about others? or how they felt if that happened to them?
4. This also the case when the customers line up long. A customer you served take a veryyy long time.. Sometimes just a box of six... Merely because they don't know what to choose... I don't know if you're blind or what but really be aware of the surrounding. But when you told them, they make a face or angry... Hello, I'm the one who wanted to be angry!!! It just make you wanted to leave it and took another customers...

Not just that, as I worked there, I could merely classify them in a few groups...
1.  A family with a small kid
2. A couple
3. Newlyweds
4. A group of people
5. Students
6. Worker in ECMall
7. Foreigner
I hardly saw a customer who came alone. At least they came in a group of two.

Well, there're many cases and you might be head ache with it as you had to bear. For me, this experience really this me about many things...
We will always face many different advantures as we chose a certain routes. Each of them had their own adventures we had to face... Like playing game... Fun while having difficulties...     

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

久しぶり~

Hisashiburi...
it's really hard to keep update something that do don't always do...i mean, well, it makes me wonder sometimes...
how do active bloggers keep update their blog?
first and for all, i never good in writing a diary...
i'm pretty impressive for people that always write their diaries...
i wish if there're some tips or something...
mind to share?
huhu... >_<

i want to try harder and be able to update my blog so i can release my stress and put my mind in ease... 

>.<

LOVE


Love is blind...
are you sure?
aren't you the one who's blind actually?
blame on word are just so shameless...
that's why phase like first love always a failure is born...

Love is pleasure...
you see something beautiful and you fall for it...
just see someone pretty, you fall in love...
just see someone kind, you fall in love...
just how many times do you want to fall in love?

Love is limitless...
you can't count how many times you fall...
there're many things that are beautiful...
well, it's how they suppose to...
ALLAH love all beautiful things...
that's why he created this world so wonderful and colourful...

love is endless...
you fall for something, and you bored with it...
but you'll find something else to fall in love to...
there'll never be the time for you not to be in love...
even if you said you hate it, but still you love to find reasons to hate...

Love is hate...
ever heard about don't hate someone to deeply, or you'll fall in love from head to toe...
when you hate someone, your eyes will follow him/her without fail...
until one time you'll attach to him/her...

Love is kindness...
being in love will make you changed 360...
you learn how to be kind and how to care people...
you try to be someone that can be accepted...

LOVE...
4 letters, a word yet holds many meanings and views...
for each, this word brings its own meanings...
just for it, many argues and fighting...
love is wonderful yet scary...
one will always search for it...
one will always run from it...
yet, one will always hold it dearly when they're together~

Monday, May 20, 2013

For you ...

Life is full of surprise...

today you love something and tomorrow you might hate it...

today you feel enjoy it and tomorrow you might be bored with it...

you can hardly fixed them until the end.


Life is totally priceless...

you live in this world just once...

enjoy it till the end...

do what you must so you will not regret it later...

collect as much reward as you need...

it will be your key for your lifestyle in hereafter.

 

Life is a gamble...

you bet your fate...

you face many probabilities...

you place your bet...

and you get where you are now.


Life is cruel...

you face the death of others...

you face the misfortunes...

you face unrequited love...

you face the failure...

and you still alive.


Life is a miracle...

you had hardships...

you placed the bet at the wrong place...

you feel happiness...

in the end you glad you're alive.

 

All for all, life is truly mysterious...

you can never judge or guess it...

so,

just forget about it and choose what your heart and mind want...

life is just about living without any regret...

but thing to be remember, life is important!

Nothing ...

nuffnang